I really need to get my act together! UGH So much going on right now, but I just feel so overwhelmed, I am frozen.

I am really not handling everything well. With all that is going on between my mom and I, my brain has become so scattered and I fear it has gone into hibernation - right along with my motivation! I sit at work and worry about all that needs to be done at home (and isn't). Meanwhile my desk looks like a disaster and my work tasks are multiplying faster than spring bunnies!

Mike is leaving soon and I really need to get ahold of everything. I need to come to grips with everything that has happened in the last few weeks and put it to rest - whatever me decision is (and as of now I have no idea what it may be). I have reached out to Mike and he lovingly listens and agrees, but offers no fuel for the fire, nor does he offer any help in putting it out. I reached out to my dad and he does the same. I understand where they are coming from. It isn't their place to make these decisions nor do they want to be the ones "responsible" for what I may or may not choose too do. I love them both so much for allowing me to vent and being people I can trust to listen and not judge (too harshly anyways).

I guess these are my issues and my challenges. I have decided I need to consult someone with no connections. I need to know if my thought process is too crazy or if I am justified in my thoughts and actions and how to move on with it. I need advise on how to handle this - if only there were easy answers! So I made an appointment to see a counselor. I am hoping this person can shed some light on this situation so I can make a decision and move on. I need to be able to concentrate on the kids and myself. I have to make these next 16 months work as well as possible and I need a clear mind to do that.

I always thought I could figure all of life's ordeals out, but I guess I can't. I guess this time I need help.