Yesterday Mike and I had a milestone parenting decision. Raegen was invited over to swim at a friend's house. Unfortunately, I only know the girl's mother from meeting her a few times at the school and have only met her father once. The mother was not going to be home and there was going to be 3 or 4 more friends there as well. The invitation gave us a 2 hour notice to this pool party and came from the mouth of a 6 yr old, not her parents. Mike and I decided we did not feel comfortable with this and she would not be going. We let Raegen know that we understood her disappointment, but her safety was our number one priority.
Well, as you can imagine Rae, cried and screamed as if someone was cutting her arms off. My heart ached. I too know what it feels like to want something so bad, regardless how silly or insignificant it may seem to others, and not get it. The little voice in my head told me to just let her go, she'll be fine, but my mommy instinct said "Stick to your guns!" As I sat there listening to Raegen scream and cry and beg "for the answerrrrrr to chaaaaange" I hurt for her, but I was proud that Mike and I came together, made a decision and stuck with it.
So the raod seems so long, some of the road looks dark, bleak and full of potholes, but I look forward to the hilly part that gives you that feeling in your stomache just has you pass the crest of the hill! Here's to holding on!
